But once the decision was finally made, a huge weight lifted off of me and I knew in my heart it was the right decision for me. And on that Monday, the day the divorce was final, I came home from the courthouse, sat in my living room and just breathed . . . sitting in stunned silence, basking in my newborn freedom. And me, being a planner, suddenly panicked about what was I going to do next. I had been so focused on getting through this painful event, that I hadn't thought beyond this very moment!
And as I sat there thinking what should I do next, which way should I go, how will I manage everything, will this all work out ??????????. . . on and on, spinning myself into a tizzy . . . it suddenly dawned on me that I DIDN'T have to make any decisions right then. That the rest of my life was a blank canvas, just waiting to be filled with the artwork of my future life. And then I began to glow inside as I thought of all the possibilities . . . and my, oh my, were they grand!
And so, with a new-found love of writing poetry and stories, I wrote this poem to remind myself of all the positive things I had to look forward to. I hope that any of you that are dealing with a sudden change in your life will read this and realize that YOU control how you react to that change . . . how you frame your thoughts around whether it's a positive event or not . . . how you decide to move forward in spite of the change . . . how you let go and let God walk with you down this new road you are traveling on. And I hope and pray that you can see even just one grand possibility to lead you through the situation you face . . . and I hope in some small way this poem inspires you to move forward, keeping your mind open to the myriad of possibilities in this beautiful world God has provided us.
Have a joyous day!
TA Roberts
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The Possibilities Are Grand!
My future is spread out before me I
can go anywhere, be who I want to be ,
and the possibilities are grand it
doesn’t even have to be planned!
I might take it one day at a time
and experiment with paints and rhyme.
Or I might write a story or two the
good thing is it doesn’t matter what I do!
I need to work hard and save my money
so I can travel and see my honey!
And I want to take some classes
to learn how to illustrate for the masses.
I’d love to see my name on a book
and ask my friends to take a look.
Or see my artwork on a gallery wall
or hanging in a fancy dining hall.
I want to learn how to create a website,
to sell my art and what my honey can write.
And maybe selling the coding I’ve learned
is a way some travel money can be earned!
I want to go to a beach and tan
and swim in the ocean and play in the sand.
And find a cause I can really support
like Habitat for Humanity or veterans at a fort.
The key to it all is the freedom I’ll have
to pick and choose and not need a salve
anymore to heal my heart
and this week has been a great start!
My new life started one day ago
and there’s one thing I know it
already feels good,
just like I hoped it would!
And as I move forward and take care of me,
I hope that my friends and family can see
that this hard decision was the right one
and I’m so happy now the marriage is done!
Now I need to work on my mind embrace
the positive, leave the negative behind!
I need to learn patience and how to wait
while I hope that friendly visits become a date!
But for now, I’ll just continue along,
smiling and singing a favorite song,
or painting an owl or maybe some flowers
while God in his grace, happiness he showers!
Teresa
Roberts
5/22/2014
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